I have seven pumpkins upstairs that need to be gutted so that we can carve them tonight, but first I have to do the dishes. I need to get my butt in gear so the carving can commence after dinner.
There is a reason that I only have three really close female friends (two of which live in other states)....self preservation. Women have a tendency to go after one another for the slightest things. Instead of building one another up they tear each other down. So I tend to keep most women that I meet at arms length. I don't let them in to see who I really am because of fear. For example I have an aunt who no one really likes to be around because she is so petty. My sister had just redone her living room and it was really lovely. This aunt went to see it and all she could do was pick it apart instead of saying how happy she was for my sister that it was finally done. This aunt also told my grandmother to get rid of an old chair that was my grandfathers...almost immediately after he died. Ticked me off. I wonder if we as women...(and I say we because, ashamedly, I have done the tearing down just as others) tend to tear other women down so that we can feel better about ourselves? Isn't that usually how it works? There are also women out there who only want to be your friend and stand by your side if it benefits them. I was blessed with a wonderful mother whom I love because she was so loving towards other people. A couple of my brothers married really badly and yet my mom will always try to find something good about these women. I try to have a better attitude towards other women because it is really hard to be one. Especially if you are mother. We put SO much pressure on ourselves to do everything and do it perfectly. Recently I went into a neighbors home and the kitchen was a complete disaster. I looked at it and thought.. "You know, I am SO glad that I am not the only person who struggles with keeping up with housework." Now I don't always think that but I did that time. We also tend to have tender feelings which get hurt more over seemingly smaller things. It's too bad that instead of having faith in one another we have to doubt each other. Instead of being there for one another no matter what...we are only there for each other if it is in our best interest or if we haven't had our feelings hurt. Women can say and do some of the most hateful things...I know...I am one. And some days I am ashamed to admit that.
